Yesterday I decided that it might be a good idea to plant notes from the last Spirit Babies ceremonies on Mother’s Day. There were so many cute little flowers on sale at Trader Joe’s just in time for the holiday. The flowers I chose included low-water plants (the red and yellow flowers that aren’t roses), miniature red roses, and forget-me-nots. I already had seeds for marigolds, and I had saved the black cala lilies from the October 2014 Spirit Babies altar at Sun Gallery. I bought more potting soil, since I planned to transfer the flowers to larger pots and include the notes in them.
I intentionally did my shopping yesterday. As many of you know, if you have experienced pregnancy loss, going out into the world on Mother’s Day can sting. It can feel like a slap in the face or a punch in the gut. Everyone says “Happy Mother’s Day” and what do you say in return?
This morning, I gathered the notes, lit a candle from the Spirit Babies ceremonies, set the mizuko jizo statue next to it and cast a circle. I put some notes into one of the pots, layered some soil, more notes, more soil and then plants or seeds. I read some of the notes as I did this, holding space for all your love and tears that went into them. And then I cleaned everything up, opened the circle, using the garden trowel as my magic wand. I put the containers in my window box.
I am not a gardener but I will tend to this garden with love and respect. This is for those of you who have been to a Spirit Babies ceremony or installation. This is for those of you who sent us notes if you couldn’t make the ceremony in person. This is for us. I will post photos throughout the year as the flowers bloom.